justdidntseeit: (time here all but means nothing)
Kate Warner ([personal profile] justdidntseeit) wrote2011-06-26 10:41 pm

[[ wheelsy, south carolina ]]

[ "Bill, I'm Kate. It's really nice to meet you." ]

She should tell him.

She should, shouldn't she?

A thousand and one possibilities cycle through her thoughts, the same fear shadowing each of them: What if this damages his timeline, somehow? What if she ruins something by telling him she met his younger self in the bar?



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She falls into a fitful sleep, well before Bill comes home.



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She wakes a few hours later, still in her short khaki skirt and summery top, to the sound of Bill snoring next to her.

She scrubs her eyes and sits up, rumpled and groggy. The light blanket Bill must've covered her with before bed slips to her waist.

Squinting at the clock on the nightstand, she breathes out something between a sigh and a yawn. With a glance at her wrinkled clothes, she slides out of bed to change into actual sleepwear.

She pulls on a fresh camisole, and finds her favorite pair of yoga pants, worn soft and thin from hundreds of washings. In the bathroom, she pulls her tousled hair into a ponytail; she washes her face and brushes her teeth as quietly as possible, in hopes that she won't interrupt Bill's sleep.



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She can't turn off her brain.

Giving up, she pads out of the bedroom, careful not to wake Bill. She pours herself a glass of white wine, and flips on a single lamp in the living room.

She settles into her favorite corner of the couch, a navy scrapbook in tow. Its contents have become as familiar as some of her own family photo albums, each newspaper clipping and photo caption holding information that feels firsthand, now, instead of second and third.

As horrifying and heart-breaking as most of the photographs are, she draws a strange kind of comfort from every page she pores and flips.
wheelsy_sheriff: (dreams)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
After finishing their shift Bill and Dave had headed to the lodge. They had a few rounds and talked about Rudy's cousin.

"We can't just run him outta town, Bill. He hasn't done anything, yet."

"Yet. And he has."

"Time served."

"Put their grandma through hell."

"Yeah, well... "


Finding Kate asleep, Bill tucked her in and changed before dropping into bed and passing out.


His sleep turns fitful, and Bill wakes with a start.

He doesn't know if he's disappointed or grateful to find the spot next to him empty.

Needing a drink to help with his cotton-mouth, and to hopefully get back to sleep, he gets up and pads down the hallway.

Stopping in the kitchen first, he cracks the top on a beer from the fridge, then moves into the threshold between the kitchen and living room.

Rubbing at his eyes, he sees Kate sitting on the corner of the couch.

"Whatcha reading?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (concern)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 03:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Taking a drink, he shakes his head.

"No, I-- "

He catches something off in her voice. Lowering the can, he takes a step closer and tries to see her better in the dim light.

"Are you cryin'?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (somethin' wrong)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Bill moves across the room and sits down beside her on the couch.

Putting his beer on the coffee table, he reaches for the book she has, and realizes what she's looking at.

"Kate-- "

His eyes scan the page she's on, and he tries to lift it away from her.
wheelsy_sheriff: (planes)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
"This probably isn't the best bed time story," he says, closing the album and setting it down on the table.

He looks her over, studying her quietly.

"What's wrong?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (concern)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 05:31 pm (UTC)(link)
He lays his hand on her calf, squeezing gently.

Looking up at her, his first reaction is to ask 'what?', but he starts with, "Why?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (close conversation)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 06:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Not sure what to expect in her answer, he can't help a small chuckle when he hears it.

"Crazy? Kate, c'mon, how much of what I say makes me sound crazy?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (hearing words)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
His features shift, and the small smile he's wearing fades.

"You do?"

Worry creases his brow, and he looks her over more carefully.

"Kate, what's wrong?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (it's wrong)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 07:30 pm (UTC)(link)
His hand lifts from her leg, and he draws it back, eyes locked on her.

"If what isn't real? Us?"

There's a hard lump in his throat, and it feels like glass when he swallows slowly.

"Kate, if this is about you goin' back, I already said-- "

He's trying to keep hurt and anxiety out of his voice, and keeps his eyes on hers, hoping she'll look at him.

"You know I care about you."
wheelsy_sheriff: (explain)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Bill's shaking his head, but he doesn't know what to say.

Seeing her fear and uncertainty makes him ache, and he's stunned to discover this is something that's been troubling her.

He reaches for her hand, eyes steady on her.

"Kate, I-- you didn't make this up. I know Milliways is pretty incredible an' all, but that don't make it not real. You aren't imagining this."
wheelsy_sheriff: (planes)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
His eyes go down to their hands, and he doesn't feel like he's convinced her.

Worrying about her, his eyes flick up at her next words.

"What? You did?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (...you sure?)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah."

He's racking his brain, trying to dig up any memories of what she's talking about, and coming up empty.

"How old was I?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (squid)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 11:20 pm (UTC)(link)
That's just--

"Weird."

Bill gives a small headshake, then reaches forward and picks up his beer. It's a strange notion, and he pauses in taking a drink.

"An' you're sure it was me?"
wheelsy_sheriff: (uh)

[personal profile] wheelsy_sheriff 2011-06-27 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Bill goes still.

"Yeah. She was-- yeah. I found her when I was... Christ I must've been seven or eight when I took in that ol' mutt."

He says it fond, but is also a bit unsettled.

"I've met other people when they were little. George was in, once, an' Doc. But I never thought I'd-- an' I ran into you."

He works a smile, and squeezes her hand.

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